Monday, October 17, 2011
Monday, October 10, 2011
Fast forward to recent weeks.
Recent weeks were damn epic.
Happy, angry sad. Happy angry sad.
LIKE WAD??!
Becos I was being compared.
Yes.
And I rmb one statement from you.
About how flexible ur frens are and how irritating I am.
I did what I can jus to see you, after work.
Even to amk.
Telling me dat " I noe u sure cnt " sucks my life.
Do I dun hv the right to ask wad time back?
Jus give me the time and I noe how to organise.
And this is the reason why I was excluded.
Besides spending almost one night outside wif the same frens, next day initiate an outing again.
Happy life eh?
U wanted to be happy dat much, alright.
Wad did I get in the end? Sadness in return while u are having ur fun out there.
* It's not abt not letting u having fun, there's a certain extent to having fun *
Thus there's no reason telling me no money.
I dun buy dat anymore.
Just like wad girlfriend said.
"We took time to dress up and meet you. But u dun even bother and care."
Excuses is tired, lazy.
I oso tired and lazy. Can I say dat to u oso?
We dun. Cos we do whatever we can jus to meet u.
Appreciate? No.
One chinese saying, (direct translation) :
Want you treat you like jewellery
Dun want you treat you like grass.
All I want is just a guy who noes how to care for me and be there whenever I need him.
Not getting lost halfway and dun even noe where he's been.
Plus not meeting once jus becos I said once a week and for the sake of seeing.
Sometimes I wonder if I were to be missing one day, would you ever notice?
Would you get me back?
Would you had lost me?
I can say. Yes, u had lost me.
Becos I dunno how else I can change your life for the better.
All I noe is :
A guy who really loves u, will never let u go no matter wad.
A woman who really loves u, will stick wif u no matter how angry she is towards lots of things.
Indeed. I do love you.
Nothing can describe this feeling, but a song called 'Skyscraper'. Airing now.
Recent weeks were damn epic.
Happy, angry sad. Happy angry sad.
LIKE WAD??!
Becos I was being compared.
Yes.
And I rmb one statement from you.
About how flexible ur frens are and how irritating I am.
I did what I can jus to see you, after work.
Even to amk.
Telling me dat " I noe u sure cnt " sucks my life.
Do I dun hv the right to ask wad time back?
Jus give me the time and I noe how to organise.
And this is the reason why I was excluded.
Besides spending almost one night outside wif the same frens, next day initiate an outing again.
Happy life eh?
U wanted to be happy dat much, alright.
Wad did I get in the end? Sadness in return while u are having ur fun out there.
* It's not abt not letting u having fun, there's a certain extent to having fun *
Thus there's no reason telling me no money.
I dun buy dat anymore.
Just like wad girlfriend said.
"We took time to dress up and meet you. But u dun even bother and care."
Excuses is tired, lazy.
I oso tired and lazy. Can I say dat to u oso?
We dun. Cos we do whatever we can jus to meet u.
Appreciate? No.
One chinese saying, (direct translation) :
Want you treat you like jewellery
Dun want you treat you like grass.
All I want is just a guy who noes how to care for me and be there whenever I need him.
Not getting lost halfway and dun even noe where he's been.
Plus not meeting once jus becos I said once a week and for the sake of seeing.
Sometimes I wonder if I were to be missing one day, would you ever notice?
Would you get me back?
Would you had lost me?
I can say. Yes, u had lost me.
Becos I dunno how else I can change your life for the better.
All I noe is :
A guy who really loves u, will never let u go no matter wad.
A woman who really loves u, will stick wif u no matter how angry she is towards lots of things.
Indeed. I do love you.
Nothing can describe this feeling, but a song called 'Skyscraper'. Airing now.
3rd/4th Sept 2011
A heated argument day wif someone.
I dun rmb clearly wad it was about.
However for past consecutive wkends, it was the same old issue.
-NO REPLY OF MSG-
Sometimes I wish I can understand, but it seems like I dun.
Do I do it like dat too? I wonder.
But I'm not.
Cos I noe no matter how busy I am, I will take some time to give a reply instead of making the other party worry.
It's all abt whether u put a thought for dat person who means a lot to u or u jus dun give a damn, and letting the person waiting for u like a fool.
At dat time, I was travelling alone to find out the location of my office.
A whole new place which I never been before.
Alone.
Facing the sadness alone.
Crying myself alone.
Holding back my tears alone.
Where did I land myself?
A lost place which I dunno where I am except dat I'm at Outram Park.
Dat's all.
I dun mind searching places alone.
Even ppl kidnap me I dun care, cos no one cares.
I was never once went to the wrong place, or having wrong sense of direction.
Becos a moment of sadness and anger, it led me to nowhere.
I picked myself up and I cleared my thought.
Finally I got to Valley Point Office Tower.
This is how I endure this feeling.
A heated argument day wif someone.
I dun rmb clearly wad it was about.
However for past consecutive wkends, it was the same old issue.
-NO REPLY OF MSG-
Sometimes I wish I can understand, but it seems like I dun.
Do I do it like dat too? I wonder.
But I'm not.
Cos I noe no matter how busy I am, I will take some time to give a reply instead of making the other party worry.
It's all abt whether u put a thought for dat person who means a lot to u or u jus dun give a damn, and letting the person waiting for u like a fool.
At dat time, I was travelling alone to find out the location of my office.
A whole new place which I never been before.
Alone.
Facing the sadness alone.
Crying myself alone.
Holding back my tears alone.
Where did I land myself?
A lost place which I dunno where I am except dat I'm at Outram Park.
Dat's all.
I dun mind searching places alone.
Even ppl kidnap me I dun care, cos no one cares.
I was never once went to the wrong place, or having wrong sense of direction.
Becos a moment of sadness and anger, it led me to nowhere.
I picked myself up and I cleared my thought.
Finally I got to Valley Point Office Tower.
This is how I endure this feeling.
1st Sept 2011
A great day indeed, especially class outing.
It was a good time where I can talk nonsense or make a fool out of myself.
There will be Eunice and Herdy to talk with, Wei Xiong all and Chee Hau who looked like lecturer wif dat formal outfit of his.
Oh and did I mention I had an adopted son called Aldrich Lim?
For the whole bbq outing, he was like sitting there emo-ing all the way, which made everyone went -.-!
Well he's quite pitiful as gg through heart pain of a r/s.
Who don't? Even I do, lots of times.
Eunice's cheesecakes were nice.
She should carve out a baking career and business will sure be a BOOM :)
'Smurfing' love the day after bbq!
And I shld say this, the last day I took a ride on picanto.
A great day indeed, especially class outing.
It was a good time where I can talk nonsense or make a fool out of myself.
There will be Eunice and Herdy to talk with, Wei Xiong all and Chee Hau who looked like lecturer wif dat formal outfit of his.
Oh and did I mention I had an adopted son called Aldrich Lim?
For the whole bbq outing, he was like sitting there emo-ing all the way, which made everyone went -.-!
Well he's quite pitiful as gg through heart pain of a r/s.
Who don't? Even I do, lots of times.
Eunice's cheesecakes were nice.
She should carve out a baking career and business will sure be a BOOM :)
'Smurfing' love the day after bbq!
And I shld say this, the last day I took a ride on picanto.
31st August 2011
The day I touched down and he was there, waiting for me in his Malay baju.
A day when it was his mum's bdae.
A day when we all got to know our IPP places.
I gotten Olympus Singapore.
At first, I dunno wad's so funny abt.
Cameras dat they were laughing? Serious pe.
At least it's a company that majority knew.
Not like some which is like located somewhere, somehow or somewhat.
Initially I thought I was gg to do like a photoshop, designing.
THOUGHT.
This is wad I knew the next day.
The day I touched down and he was there, waiting for me in his Malay baju.
A day when it was his mum's bdae.
A day when we all got to know our IPP places.
I gotten Olympus Singapore.
At first, I dunno wad's so funny abt.
Cameras dat they were laughing? Serious pe.
At least it's a company that majority knew.
Not like some which is like located somewhere, somehow or somewhat.
Initially I thought I was gg to do like a photoshop, designing.
THOUGHT.
This is wad I knew the next day.
New layout from blogger.
Seems like testing, but it's not.
Cos I really wanna blog out everything just like how I did in IPP for now.
A blog came to be in handy when it comes to feelings and emotions; another word for 'ranting' in a nice manner.
Becos I once neglected it, and now I'm yearning it back to me.
I dunno how long my memory can hold, wif lots of things frustrating and 'choking' on me.
This blog is meaningful to me, and it records down the bits and pieces of the entire months I'm gg through for now.
Last post was on August 2011.
Thus I will having posts divided into each happenings and activities.
26th August 2011
It was our 19th month. I almost had a loss count for it, but am glad I'm willing to take note of the months tgt. To our own poly classes, it's considered longer than majority of them, but to other ppl who had been through lots of relationships seem short. It does not matter to me whether it's long or short, as long as both understood well enough. The problem is, do we?
It's the day dat we didn't get to meet each other as I'm living for a flight to Beijing wif my cousins, nephews and mum, while he's gg for work, as usual, Enchanted Airways. However, at the same time, his mum was not feeling well and he was not at home to take care of her. A filial son he is, felt guilty.
As we were 6 hrs flight distance apart, no doubt dat we missed each other and his 2nd tweet on saying that he missed me. It was sweet at dat moment. Who dun feel touched?
Honestly, every single day I missed him like mad. I'm not sure abt how he felt.
Seems like testing, but it's not.
Cos I really wanna blog out everything just like how I did in IPP for now.
A blog came to be in handy when it comes to feelings and emotions; another word for 'ranting' in a nice manner.
Becos I once neglected it, and now I'm yearning it back to me.
I dunno how long my memory can hold, wif lots of things frustrating and 'choking' on me.
This blog is meaningful to me, and it records down the bits and pieces of the entire months I'm gg through for now.
Last post was on August 2011.
Thus I will having posts divided into each happenings and activities.
26th August 2011
It was our 19th month. I almost had a loss count for it, but am glad I'm willing to take note of the months tgt. To our own poly classes, it's considered longer than majority of them, but to other ppl who had been through lots of relationships seem short. It does not matter to me whether it's long or short, as long as both understood well enough. The problem is, do we?
It's the day dat we didn't get to meet each other as I'm living for a flight to Beijing wif my cousins, nephews and mum, while he's gg for work, as usual, Enchanted Airways. However, at the same time, his mum was not feeling well and he was not at home to take care of her. A filial son he is, felt guilty.
As we were 6 hrs flight distance apart, no doubt dat we missed each other and his 2nd tweet on saying that he missed me. It was sweet at dat moment. Who dun feel touched?
Honestly, every single day I missed him like mad. I'm not sure abt how he felt.
Monday, August 15, 2011
Dear blog, I have no one else to talk to except for you.
Cos wadever I said to u, u wun keep pushing blame on me when I nd a listening ear.
This is wad I wanted.
A listening ear.
Being crappy recently and wadever I did will always say the blame's on me.
Am I born to let ppl blame on me or is it I'm nice to get shoot at?
Why can't ppl understand wad the fuck I'm gg through?
Yes, what the fuck. The first vulgar ever had in this blog.
Becos I feel dat I cnt communicate wif ppl.
I tried not to be emo, but things have to get the better of me and make me lose control.
I have to suffer in silence in order not to show my enraged emotion.
And till now I'm still suffering.
Why?
Cos yet again, ppl dun put themselves in my shoes.
Keeping quiet doesn't mean I'm okay.
It means I dun wanna argue dat much.
I'm not in a good mood. Dun try to come provoke me if u still wan ur life.
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Subutteo's practice
Currently at jurong rc..feeel so sian...i'm like always the one who give points to ppl..siannnn..dun wan penalty den i get penalty match..now i wanted a penalty match, end up i nv get :(..
Wad's worse is when the goal of the opponent is tyco!! Arghh! Dun wan to play liaooooo..
Haikal : "why u lose?"
Me : "becos of u lor..finalise his goal"
Haikal : "mus be fair mahhh.."
He is jus soooo cute until i dunno wad to say..lol..
Fancy him asking me this dumb qn..lol..he's the one who made me lose..
And keep laughing at me :(..sad..
Location : 201 Jurong East Avenue 1,
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